我的第一书出版了！My First Book is Published!

我在TED演讲后收到北京一家出版社邀请，把演讲内容扩充写成一本书《读书，推迟妥协那天的到来》，但书稿没能通过内容审查。

• 「出版物價值觀導向很重要，在書中有多處宣傳美國價值觀，貶低中國的地方，這類言論在中國肯定是不能出版的。」
• 「涉及宗教、禁書的，是出版物中忌諱的，都需要刪除。」
• 「要在中國言論管制嚴格的環境下出版，什麼話該說不該說可能還是要充分考慮。」
• 「刪除篇幅較大。您看是否能接受這樣的刪改？如果不能接受刪改，恐怕出版工作就進行不下去了。」

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以上文字引自2015年中國青年出版社給我的最終審稿意見，當時我一讀就炸了：老子當然不刪，槍斃書稿也不刪！我婉拒了他們的刪改要求，主動放棄了出版合同。之後一兩年我嘗試過在大陸以外尋找出版社，但發現很難，也沒有人脈和時間去持續尋找，只好扔下書稿，抽屜一關，放下出版它的執念。

時間快進到今年初，我因為幫朋友一個小忙而認識了台灣采薇出版社主編胡志成及其夫人林志厚。大家都是愛書之人，一見如故，十分投緣。我提起自己這部書稿，他們閱讀之後欣然決定出版，讓我喜出望外，又難以置信：這塵封八年的書稿，命運轉折竟倏忽而至，如有神助，胡志成夫婦真是天使！

我喜歡聽《Steve說》播客節目，主播史秀雄說他的節目最近突然被中國大陸全網封禁，他和嘉賓分享心中的迷茫和憤怒，互相鼓勵不要放棄，因為「萬物皆有時」，終有出頭日。我聽得眼淚都要下來了，因為想起當年的審稿遭遇，依然意難平，因為正在見證「萬物皆有時」，看我的書終於面世。

我用網路給史秀雄傳遞了我的支持，也希望用這本書，和你一起互相鼓勵——

推遲妥協，不要放棄，萬物皆有時。

Seven years after my TED talk | TED演讲七年之后

我有幸在TED2013大会上做了一个关于阅读的力量的演讲，其中提到小时候梦想当戏曲演员，但没机会尝试，多年无法释怀，好在阅读让我慢慢从郁闷中走出来。
I have the fortune to give a talk about the power of reading at the TED2013 conference. In it I told the story of how my childhood dream of becoming a Chinese opera singer got crushed, and how reading saved me from becoming cynical of life.

梦想已死去快四十年，我早就不指望此生会与戏曲界有什么交集，但没想到2018年回南京拜访大学时的老师吕效平教授时竟和戏曲圈子搭上了关系。他那时已答应越剧著名女小生茅威涛在她从艺四十周年即2019年时再写一篇具有学术论文，系统研讨茅威涛的戏曲实践。吕老师曾在2014年发表论文《茅威涛对于现代戏曲的意义》，成为茅威涛极为信赖和尊重的戏曲研究专家之一。
Almost 40 years after the death of that childhood dream,  I've long assumed that Chinese opera and my life would never cross. To my surprise, while visiting my college professor Lv Xiaoping in Nanjing in 2018, I found myself get connected to the circle of Chinese opera. At that time he had already promised Mao Weitao, a famous Yue opera actress specialized in playing men onstage, that he would write another academic paper about her art in 2019, the 40th anniversary of Mao's career. The 2014 paper by Prof. Lv, The Meaning of Mao Weitao to Modern Chinese Opera, has made him one of most trusted and respected opera researchers for Mao.

和吕老师聊天时他谈起一个苦恼：他自己没时间去做研究写那篇论文，手下有空的研究生又很难胜任这项课题，因为平常都不听戏。我当时脑子一热就毛遂自荐了：我小学起就喜欢听越剧，茅威涛的戏更是从她出道起就开始听，我拿的大众传播博士学位虽然跟戏曲没什么直接关系，但经常用到的理论训练——媒体心理学——却完全可以拿来研究戏曲这个传媒内容。
During our conversation, Prof. Lv mentioned a dilemma he was facing -- He had no time to research and write that promised paper, while his graduate students, who had time, had difficulty taking on the project because they seldom go to Chinese opera. Something must have got to my mind because I immediately volunteered to work on the project: I love Yue opera since childhood and have been listening to Mao's performance since her debut; Even though my doctorate in mass communication bears no direct association to Chinese opera, the media psychology theories I have been trained to use are completely suitable for analyzing Chinese opera, a form of communication.

吕老师一听也动心了，当场打电话征询茅威涛团队，几天后我们就在杭州和茅威涛面对面讨论，一拍即合。接下来十六个月我的业余时间大多花在观摩、采访、读资料、讨论和写作上面，除了期间因为父亲去世而暂停一段。总算沒白干，写完《为现代人改编传统戏：以角色代入理论评析茅威涛的越剧创新》，发表在 2020年1月出版的《戏剧与影视评论》上。
Prof. Lv was intrigued by my proposal and called Mao's team right there for their thoughts. A few days later, we were in Hangzhou talking face to face with Mao and reached a deal. During the following 16 months, I spent most of my free time on watching operas, interviewing people, reading research, discussing ideas, and writing the paper. The only break I took was when my father passed away. All that work paid off. My paper, "Adapting Traditional Opera for Modern Audience: Using the Identification Theory to Review Mao Weitao's Yue Opera Reform," was published in the journal of "Stage and Screen Reviews" in Jan 2020.

茅威涛、吕老师 ，谢谢你们给我机会和信任！命运有时真的很神奇，出乎意料地给我一个机会去抚慰自己少年时对戏曲的执念。命运可以很粗暴，也可以很温柔，取决于我们遇到什么人，取决于我们怎样去回应。
Mao Weitao and Prof. Lv, thanks for giving me this opportunity and your trust. Fate can be truly magical at times. It has unexpectedly given me a chance to pacify my inside teenager's obsession with opera. Fate can be brutal or gentle, depending on who we meet and how we respond.

Voting for the First Time 第一次投票

On the eve of 2012 presidential election, I gave a 6-minute talk about my experience of voting for the first time as part of a mini TED on Nov 5, 2012. The video ended up on the TED blog.

"What one does may not change the outcome of an event, but it's never in vain. To participate is to say 'yes' to life, to join the force of life." I feel really honored to be given the opportunity to tell my story. I hope it has inspired some people to vote.